Single Mormon Mom Blog

   It has been four weeks since my Dad passed away and I miss him every moment.  There are times when I think about visiting him, before I catch myself with thoughts of how I can't.  The ache that came with his passing is still here; I feel it every day.  I miss him so much.   The funeral was so very beautiful.  It was a perfect mix of spirituality and humor and love, and that was who my dad was.  I had such a hard time up until that day.  I hadn't felt my dad's spirit around me, and although I believed with all my heart he had moved onto a better place, I wished to feel him near me for just a moment. In the middle of the funeral, a dear friend of the family sang a song called "Whenever I hear the song of a bird." and it was in that moment that I knew my dad was there.  With those words, singing of the beauty of the world, the beauty my dad loved so much, I knew he was with me.   I had an experience a few days later as well.  I came home and was walking up the

Today I'll say goodbye by Bethany Frederick Today I'll say goodbye to you And tears I know I'll cry The heart that aches inside of me wonders why you had to die Today I'll say goodbye to you No more words of love I'll hear I won't hear you laugh again and feelings of loss appear Today I'll say goodbye to you and yet I know you'll be in my heart I'll feel you in the wind that blows and I know we won't always be apart Today I'll say goodbye to you and although I'll miss you every day I'll be with you again sweet dad and then forever with you I'll stay

    My dad has been struggling with Alzheimer's for quite a few years now.  He has been in an assisted living care unit for a while now, and just over the past few days he's been really having a tough time.  It seems his body isn't letting him swallow anymore, and although it may mean his body is trying to let go of some recent medication deductions, it might also mean his body is giving up. And that's tough. I don't want to think that worst, but it's really hard not to.   I went to see him today.  I took both of my boys, and my mom was already there.  He was just laying in bed, and although his eyes were open he was pretty non responsive.  I could get him to nod a few times, but that was it.  It's so tough, so very tough, seeing him like that.  My dad.  My big, strong, loving dad.   So let me remember the good times for a moment.  Remember the things I miss the most.  The things I miss this very day.  For although I may only have a few days left with hi

    When I was first toying around with writing a blog, I had a running title in mind.  Instead of Single Mormon Mom Blog, I was going to call it Single Fat Mormon Mom blog.  Why?  Because I am over weight, and I need to lose it!! But the more I thought about it, the more I realized that, although accurate  that title wasn't altogether fair.  In fact, I realized I was just being mean!  Yes I need to lose weight, but instead of being focused on it by having it in the title, I know that I need to start doing something about it!!!   Two years ago I got the Wii Fit, in the hopes that by using that as a work out tool, I'd be very productive and lose of lot of weight.  It was very hard not to get discouraged by the perky little wii voice shouting out "You're Obese!" and every time I turned it on, I thought of that!  Plus the fact that I figured how to cheat simply by moving my hand up and down, and tricking it into thinking I was jogging, I soon realized the Wii Fit j

    Ok so Valentine's Day came and went.  I was in Fred Meyers, walking around getting some orange juice and snacks since I was sick.  There were balloons everywhere, flowers, chocolates, bath stuff, reds and pinks and lace!  I was struck by the presence of a holiday that I really couldn't connect with, or really celebrate.    I can't quite remember how I felt about Valentine's Day last year, but this year I realized something, I didn't feel bummed out about Valentine's Day at all!!  What a nice realization   And in fact I feel for the first time, in a long time, I've come to terms with being single.  At least for now.  I'm single .  Ok...I can be single for a while.  I'm doing good on my own.  Not to say I wouldn't totally embrace a relationship if one happened to fall in my lap, but I'm fine without being with someone.  It's taken me a while to accept this.  Let's see...five years to accept it?   I started to look back over the

    I've been toying around with the idea that I would start blogging.  I have a family blog, but I never update it.  I don't know why I think this will be more effective, but I'm thinking it will be a good motivator!  And maybe along the way I can connect with other people like me.  Those who struggle with being single, being in the LDS church, and being a mom all rolled into one!   Let me start off with saying a bit about me.  I'm a mid thirties woman, who has been a single mom for five years now.  I have two wonderful boys, one who is twelve and has asperger's (Gabe) and one who is five who is very energetic (Zach). I grew up in the LDS church, and when I was a teen had a huge rebellious streak that caused me to fall away for a long time!  But before my second son was born, I started getting back into the church again and my testimony grew, and since I "converted" to the church I have never looked back!  I love the gospel and the values of my reli